Recently I have found myself having various conversations with my friends- girls and guys- about love. About what is is, finding it, what it's good for (nothing?)... how much we HATE it LOL...
People have so many view points on love and loving relationships. Being an artist... it's really hard because your schedule is so crazy. Early mornings, late nights, late mornings, early nights. 15 hour days. No sleep. Solitude so that you can think and be creative. Sometimes moody. Sometimes anti- social. Artists (myself included) are just crazy. We live crazy lives, sometimes it's really fun and sometimes it's really lonely.
But it's not just us (artists)... there are a lot of lonely people out there... who fight the lonliness... who try to be/choose to be ice cold- but know deep down the Love Below is talkin' to ya. I can't speak for everyone, but I'll speak for me. A personal story- that I know I share with others...
I've spent the last few years chasing my dreams of stardom... grinding. One thing that I've realized is that in order to stay focused you have to be a little bit hard (like Rihanna said LOL) so you don't get distracted. Gotta have extreme DISCIPLINE. No money, no fun, no chillin', no sleep- kind of discipline- but after a while the discipline becomes the norm and it's not as easy to get distracted as it once was. You line up your priorities and you #gooooooooooo but when you come home at night from those long nights and you're all alone- yo... that ish is wack. People pretend like those days don't exist. Or those days don't bother them- but those same people find themselves drinking away the love below... smoking it away... shutting it up temporarily with random jump offs- or DIVING BACK INTO WORK none of which are ever even a close second to the warmth you get when you have another person in your life. You find yourself being a miserable wretch.
I had a conversation with another artist friend of mine, and we have been trying so hard to chill- not to get involved, not care about anyone... not to have emotions... fighting every the complete opposite of EVERYTHING that makes us women, and gives us stories to write about... and finally we concluded that we are exhausted. It's terribly exhausting and inhumane to deny yourself love. Not to mention it make you a B*%$# So we made a pact to follow our hearts. To stop pretending to be robots. To live and love freely. To stay focused but allow the love below to flourish, because it only makes our songs that much better... and it feels good. I'm not gonna turn my back on love anymore... I'm gonna face it.
Love isn't a distraction. It's balance. Embrace it. When you find someone to share your stories with at the end of the day... Enjoy it.
Song of the day... TWICE by Little Dragon.
Twice I turned my back on you...
I fell flat on my face but did not lose.
Tell me where would I go?
Tell me what led you on I'd love to know.
Was it the blue night? Gone fragile...
Was it both men... in a wonder steady going under?
Was it the light rays, so frightening?
Was it two wills... and one mirror holding us dearer now.
Thought I had an answer once
But your random way swept me along
Colossal signs so I got lost...
with so many lovers singing songs.
Was it the blue night... gone fragile
Was it both men, in wonder steady going under.
Was it the light rays so frightning
Was it two wills... one mirror holding us dearer now.
its about learning to be okay with not having "you" time lol...thats for the bathroom...
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